feign yet legitimate

defying

yesterday, we went for Redcamp at Ngee Ann polytechnic. It was fun-filled! I love the SLs, the cheers, the people, the campers, other tribes, and our tribe Apaches! Apaches won for the first day!

Sadly, today, I didn’t go for the camp because I woke up late. Nevermind, I’ll be there for the third day! go apaches!

What am I fighting?
Afraid of losing
It’s like I’m not in control,







Went out with family for dimsum supper. I know it’s fattening, and I tell myself I won’t eat those in a month. I must stay away from oily food, deep-fried food and food that contains alot of fats. It’s like, very serious. I take these very seriously.

I don’t know what to wear for graduation. :(

“You can take away all my love
What do I need it for
You can take away all these words
There’s no meaning anymore
You can take away everything
Leave me lying on the floor
All those sorry’s we can’t go back to the start
You can’t fix me, I’m torn apart

I wanna run away from love
This time I have had enough
Every time i feel your touch, I’m broken
Shattered all my pieces of part
Never thought I’d fall so hard
Putting back together my heart, It’s broken

You can take these photographs
Watch them fade away, oh
You can throw away all these letters
I don’t care about what they say
All those sorry’s, there’s a million reasons why
You can’t mend me, don’t even try “

-Leona Lewis’s “Broken” from Echo album



back from shopping, claimed it was shopping but no one bought anything. Went to the whole of orchard, and nothing catches my eyes. Shit, grad night is really drawing near and I still couldn’t find anything.


If it wasn’t from your heart, why bother with me?
Why lift me up and let myself fall down in the end?

phases

I kept lying to myself that I’m just being sensitive.
I tell myself not be over-react and make myself unnecessary.
I wallowed in my denial, trying to think that history will not repeat itself.

Fuck you

Fuck you kthxbye